Times move faster than you think

It's been along time since i wrote in my blog and i still haven't finished saying what i need to say about my brother and his departure or his legacy and i will get to it but i think because its has been such a long time since i wrote i should say why that has been .You see after my brother died i went through a very black period of grief where it was all i could do to get out of bed and go to work it took me about a year and a half to come to terms with my loss and it wasn't until i'd come to terms with it that my life took a turn for the better . You see i decided that one of the things i need to do was heal myself which i did slowly by doing things that made me laugh childish things like jumping in puddles and finding my enjoyment in life and finding new hobbies and interests . One of the things i i craved was to meet a partner who could understand me and my situation and following a recommendation from a friend i joined a dating website after a few false starts i started messaging L at first he seemed to good to be true but slowly, actually, not slowly at all - after about two months of dating we realised we were madly in love and within 9 months we were living together and still are . I can't help but feel that as much as i had craved for this level of happiness it didn't occur until it was meant to. I don't know if my life had a preset road of where it was meant to go but given some of the harsh elements it has contained I do feel lucky to be able to say that i am happy again although i do say that with an element of caution as I would love for my brother to be able to see me as i am now , I miss him always and i will tell his story but I also needed to tell you mine.