Organ Donation

Ok so I have just looked at the blog and have realised there is absolutely nothing on here to explain why i believe in organ donation. The reason i have such a great belief in it is primarily because as a nurse and a friend, i have seen the radical difference that a transplant can make to the life of someone who desperately needs to have one. I have seen the hope return to the eyes of a recipients family and most of all because i have recieved letters of gratitude from the recipients of my brothers liver kidneys and pancreas.

Raising Awareness

Although I have been the owner of this blog for a while now i have not utilised it yet in the way that i intended i wanted a degree of anonymity as i feel that aspects of it are very personal however by keeping it so private i am not raising the level of awareness that needs to be raised so hopefull if i open it up it may either help others in similar situations or may make others think more seriously about joining the register. If you read this blog and don't like what i say all, i will say is these are my own opinions and my own reflect on what has been an extremely difficult and personal journey my intention is not to offend those that disagree with any aspects of what i have to say.

Times move faster than you think

It's been along time since i wrote in my blog and i still haven't finished saying what i need to say about my brother and his departure or his legacy and i will get to it but i think because its has been such a long time since i wrote i should say why that has been .You see after my brother died i went through a very black period of grief where it was all i could do to get out of bed and go to work it took me about a year and a half to come to terms with my loss and it wasn't until i'd come to terms with it that my life took a turn for the better . You see i decided that one of the things i need to do was heal myself which i did slowly by doing things that made me laugh childish things like jumping in puddles and finding my enjoyment in life and finding new hobbies and interests . One of the things i i craved was to meet a partner who could understand me and my situation and following a recommendation from a friend i joined a dating website after a few false starts i started messaging L at first he seemed to good to be true but slowly, actually, not slowly at all - after about two months of dating we realised we were madly in love and within 9 months we were living together and still are . I can't help but feel that as much as i had craved for this level of happiness it didn't occur until it was meant to. I don't know if my life had a preset road of where it was meant to go but given some of the harsh elements it has contained I do feel lucky to be able to say that i am happy again although i do say that with an element of caution as I would love for my brother to be able to see me as i am now , I miss him always and i will tell his story but I also needed to tell you mine.